You may wonder why I care for you
Why I try to reach out to you
Why I'm always wondering
if you are okay
I don't know you
so why do I care?
Why do I always try to make you feel better?
because I know more than you think.
I know what it means when you say you're fine.
I know this '
' doesn't always mean you're happy
I know that nothing is a just a word used to cover up the pain
I know what it's like to be screaming behind a false smile
I used to feel like I was alone in the dark
I used to think no one could possibly care about me
I used to think I was the ugliest creature alive
I used to think the world wouldn't miss me if I gave up and died...
I know how much it hurts to be alone
to be close to tears and forcing a smile
to have no one realize how much pain I was in
to force myself to be happy and carefree
Somehow I thought it was wrong to seek comfort
Somehow I thought it would make me weak
Somehow I was afraid to reach out
I didn't want to get burned again by someone who was supposed to care...
I've been down the paths of misery and despair
I've lost and found and lost myself
I've spent many nights just screaming into my pillow
I wanted to rip my fake reality to shreds
I was not happy
I just looked happy
I was not strong
I was broken
Even now the scars are fresh
I'm still untangling the real me from the fake
unraveling all the layers of false bravado
brushing off my fake cheer
I know what it's like
to feel like nothing is under your own control
to feel like no one loves you, or ever could
to wonder why I bothered to keep going
I don't want you to feel like that
I don't want you to be broken like I was
I don't want you to be screaming in agony with a smile on your face
I don't want to leave you alone.
That's why I always try, to pick you up when you fall down
That's why I always listen, and not judge you on your problems
That's why I'm by your side, whenever I feel you need support
That's why I'll protect you in any way I can.
You are my friend
Someone I will cherish
So long as you cherish me
I will always be here for you.